A Question That Came on a Good Day
Today a question suddenly appeared in my mind. It was actually a good day It’s a fasting month day even though i’m not fasting lol but the atmosphere still felt calm, soft, and warm. This is my fifth day in a row (with him) together with no space in between, five days of constant presence. And suddenly it becomes a good week <3 - I once heard people say that “Love should never feel hard if it feels hard maybe it isn’t love.” i kind of agree… or at least i want to. So when love starts to feel heavy, i always starting to questioning everything. Something small happened yesterday but it opened an old memory. Two years ago i asked my boyfriend for a plushie, just a plushie (or not 'just'). He couldn’t buy it for some reason and i get it why, soo i bought him one (so i wouldn’t feel guilty for asking) for proofing that not because couldn’t afford it, but because i wanted it to come from him. i wanted to feel chosen, not supplied. - Later, he told me that if i want ...
