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A Question That Came on a Good Day

Today a question suddenly appeared in my mind. It was actually a good day It’s a fasting month day even though i’m not fasting lol but the atmosphere still felt calm, soft, and warm.  This is my fifth day in a row (with him) together with no space in between, five days of constant presence.  And suddenly it becomes a good week <3 - I once heard people say that  “Love should never feel hard if it feels hard maybe it isn’t love.”  i kind of agree… or at least i want to. So when love starts to feel heavy, i always starting to questioning everything. Something small happened yesterday but it opened an old memory. Two years ago i asked my boyfriend for a plushie, just a plushie (or not 'just'). He couldn’t buy it for some reason and i get it why, soo i bought him one (so i wouldn’t feel guilty for asking) for proofing that not because couldn’t afford it, but because i wanted it to come from him. i wanted to feel chosen, not supplied. - Later, he told me that if i want ...

When the Moon Hides, My Heart Glows

The moon was supposed to show itself tonight, but the sky is too cloudy, as if it's hiding, the night wind feels normal ;not too cold not too warm, last night everyone was talking about the beautiful Strawberry Moon but tonight it seems shy and doesn’t want to appear.

There was actually a funny little moment from last night, my partner and i went on a night drive together, while we were driving, we saw the moon shining beautifully in the sky, we both admired it and said how pretty it looked, but we didn’t talk much more about it and we just enjoyed the view in silence.

Then earlier this evening (many hours later) he suddenly told me that his friends also mentioned how beautiful the moon looked last night, at that exact moment, i also saw news online about the Strawberry Moon, for some reason i found it really funny, i guess it was because we had our own little moon moment without realizing it was actually a special one.


Even though the moon is hiding behind the clouds tonight, my heart still feels bright—filled with gratitude and joy.

It’s almost midnight now and i’m getting ready for something i’ll do early tomorrow morning, i’m packing some of my daily essentials into smaller containers ; like soap, shampoo, conditioner, and lotion, i’ve also prepared a towel and a set of clothes, i’ll be exercising tomorrow morning.

This week i’ve spent almost every weekday doing workouts.




Trying something new isn’t always easy but it can be fun, it takes real motivation to build a new habit, at first i only did light stretching at home, some movements looked easy and felt familiar because i had been practicing them every day with help from online coaches, but now i get the chance to learn directly from people who really understand this field.


I feel very lucky because my partner fully supports and encourages me, he keeps teaching me new things and lets me explore his world, where the gym and a healthy lifestyle are a big part of who he is, i know he’s very great at this and now he’s helping me build good habits too, i am really thankful for everything about him, his presence in my life is a beautiful gift and i feel truly happy.


I hope that by starting this gym journey, i can become more disciplined, healthier, and stronger both physically and mentally, i want to take better care of myself, build confidence, and stay consistent, one step at a time, i believe this new habit will lead me to a better version of myself.

And of course i also hope this journey brings me and my partner even closer, helping us grow stronger together and deepening the beautiful connection we already have <3


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